Spend any time around a bunch of recovering alcoholics and there are a series of themes that come out. Within that series of themes (I should write a blog post on my reflections on those themes at some point) one that often comes through is fear.
Fear of being made to look a fool
Fear of economic insecurity
Fear of emotional insecurity - i.e. those you love leaving you.
Fear of being found out as a fraud
One thing though is the irrational fear - the fear of nothing but fear itself. I woke up this morning fearful. What of I really have no idea, maybe I had had a dream that was lost to my consciousness that caused this I really don't know.
Now what is the best reaction to this? Look at the facts. I can't place what this fear is about, it probably is just a stupid dream I've already forgotten, I was alright last night when I went to bed and nothing has changed ... so put if out of my mind and ignore it.
Not the alcoholic part of me - it spent far too much of my brain power today trying to rationalise the fear with some event. Hopeless - so I've had to restart the day, try to back off my brain cycles and go back to that basic point... there is nothing to fear but the fear itself. I'm feeling better already...