I've had two recent drinking dreams.
They disturb me. I know many alcoholics in recovery have these happen. The latest two have had similarities and are different from older ones.
First one I was somewhere and I knew I was drinking - I was discussing in my head the issue of having started again, I was drinking lager and considering this "ok" but was concerned I'd progress to other drinks.
The second one I was in an odd bar/pub. It was a huge oval bar with people sat it - not unlike some bars I used to visit in the USA. I was pushing myself back from the bar to distance myself. Not sure I was drinking in the second one but was concerned about it - I was in the place to drink there seemed no other reason to be there.
So two within a week - something is going on in my head. I'm still trying to figure out my new way of working, now faced with only being in the office 2 days a week I'm stressed about getting done what I need to get done in that time, but the rest of life stuff seems to be growing to engulf the rest of the time!
Who knows? Often best to just sit with these things until a reason slowly emerges from the thoughts.