via the blog world I came across Saz and through her to her Mum Moanie. I was an irregular visitor/reader/commentor on both blogs. A while back Moanie announced she wasn't well - "the Feckler" as she called it. Last week sadly Moanie lost her battle with it.
Everyday there are hassles, the everyday stuff of getting on with a job, doing the washing up, gardening etc. etc. so many things that we "have" to do and how often do you get to the end of the day and reflect on where has any of that got you? Life is short - I hope you make the most of yours today. The AA programme has a lot about "living in the day", for me the endless negative projection I used to have was crippling and blinding, never seeing what was good around me there and then. I have much to be thankful for and be happy about but my default position is to ignore all that and go into negativity. Poor Saz and her family's loss reminds me that there was things I ought to put a touch more priority into.
I've just realised why I should be thinking this way - obvious really - it was the anniversary of my Dad's passing on Saturday, 28 years ago, and that was a Saturday then too. It doesn't weigh too heavily now but it is still there - esp as I know that I've spent a lot of energy in my adult life trying to do things to please him, gain his blessing/approval and make him proud and of course that is all a bit daft and pointless given he isn't around to give me any confirmation on any of that.